ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ ｈｅｒｅ．．．

My SIL, bug and my niece dropped me at the hospital. I told them not to bother waiting since i have dec ided to go through it by myself…everytime when i was asked by someone whether in the hospital(during the labor process) or before abt H being there, i would just give a easy and short answer that “nope, he will not be there”….well, I had 2 choice or scenarios i think….have H and aina present with me annd push like a mad person for hours and hours…with constant remarks/statements like “ganbatte okasan”..or go in for a short and painless labor. I have seen and heard enough about labor experiences in Japan onli to conclude that i wouldnt wantt to be in that situation….i dont think i need to prove myself in such a way to show that i am mother when i know that i can have a stress free and easy labor. ..

I was induced with medicine until my contractions were like 2 min apart…after which the doctor broke my water…Alittle later, i had the urge to push and on the 3th push,my little peabean popped out. Th roughout the 7hrs in the labor room, i was very relaxed and had a good conversation with the nurses that was attending to me…infact the sister (lead nurse) commented that “i bet no one would believe that u could still joke and laugh”while in labor…Perhaps, God understood that i was doing it alone and thus gave me a good “environment”. They must have felt sorry for me so they allowed me to have my cell phone with me…can u imagine having a cellphone and in the midst of  labor…that surely helped H and me to be in touch. I decided to opt for epidural right from the start since i cant imagine doing it anyother way around…i told myself…this pregnancy has been a challenging one…so the least i can do to “congratulate” myself is enjoy the whole labor process…and thats what i exactly did…..

Little peabean popped out at 2.58pm just like the doctor predicted the day before and weights about 2.9kg …again as the doctor mentioned. I can surely say that my gynae here is so much experienced and skillful…I smsed my family rite after delivery and when they came ..it was just in time to see the little peabean…

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Packed Up!!

in another 2 hrs i would be on my way to the hospital and when i come back hopefully i have a healthy little boy in my hand….I have always heard the japanese mom would say having 2 kids (little ones) are more “raku”…i never failed to understand how could that be and from what point….so i just have to wait and see….as usual, both my babies showed has to be “forced” out…aina was the same and now again…well, the doctor here is so “selamba gila”…he just laughs and tells me, well some cars need extra oil/push to get started…well i was really hoping it would have been a natural situation of contractions or water burst…but what the heck…to prolong it seems risky..especially if the baby pass motion…So i might as well do what the doctor suggests.

Aina is all so hyped up and all ready for a little bro..seeing the look at her face would be priceless….My precious gift to her and her answered prayer for a little brother…hope it would be an easy and fast delivery….I am not as nervous as the first time…just wondering if the epidural would be as “strong” as the one i had with aina…I asked the doctor indirectly about pain killers…and he laughed and said…when if u have had epidural once, surely u will not be able to take the pain tis time around…In another words, he is saying dont waste my time…kekekeke….so wat the heck…might as well i request for it from the start…

To everyone who gave me blank looks when i told them that H would not be around when i deliver….trust me  it was not a easy decision…and so something that took me many “incidents” of convicing…

…keeping my faith in God and focused on my excited face that waited  for so long  to play “BIG SISTER”…

Aina

…still waiting….

Yesterday Nov 7 was suppose to be my EDD and from the previous visit to the doctor, he sounded alittle confident that i could have a early delivery which i was rather happy about.  But during my last visit which was Nov 5 , he suggested that if i want i could “induce”…at first i was in a  way waiting to hear that…coz even with bug, i induced her the very next day after the EDD. But that was in US, where i was darn sure i had the option of having a painless delivery wwhich very much so it was. But overhere i am alittle hesistant though the nurse assured me that i could get some painkillers and epidural to ease the pain….sounds very much like what i had for bug. But something in  tells me to just wait alittle longer…I think unlike some people who are so “in touch” with their body/changes…i am alittle clueless when it comes to mine…whats a contraction? what other signs to look out for?  another reason why i am considering not to jump the gun and go ahead with inducing is coz the doctor told me the baby will be smaller than bug and probably come to be around 3kg (at the best)…so i am thinking why i need to rush when there is no need for it….furthermore, hopefully if i just wait alittle longer, it could end up to be a easy and fast delivery than inducing it…

I cant sleep the past few nites coz something wakes me up at 5.30am everyday…tonite i was even up much earlier coz i think i started to have terrible hip pain and some mild cramps…hopefully its a sign that baby is on the way…

While bug　and me are here “battling” it out here, H is busy working and catching up with datelines for grants and conferences. And the time he gets in between is spent working on the 3th floor attic room….dont ask me what is her up to…but surely something that would put smile on bug face since she is really hyped up the whole idea of a so called “secret room”.

 

You R Missed bY All…

bugs card for her "tata"

Nov 2 was the All Souls Day for catholics everywhere…and Nov 4 also happens to be my dad’s third death anniversary. So bug tagged along my mom and the kids at home for the blessing of the cemetry….and she even made a nice little card with the message ” I love You Tata” to be placed at cemetry. its 3 yrs since his passing and we have yet to rebuild his plot…which was broken coz underneath that lays my sister who passed away like 30 years ago when she was jsut alittle gal….That’s what happens when we run out of land….

 

St. Anne’s Church

inside the church

last sunday, decided to visit probably wat could be the biggest church in Malaysia. I have been looking for a home altar so decided to pay a visit to the church. went with my mom, aunt and her DIL and grandson…. here are some shots…

aina getting holy water

aina and cousin

st anne church (new)

I am thinking RightNow

1. what should be my goals for 2010?

2. what is my utlimate goal in maintaining this blog?

3. how much life would be different when we return in december?

4. what are the books i want to buy next?

5. when is this baby finally gonna “pop” out??

bug is so excited and cant wait for her little “peabean”’s arrival…she is heping me with all the preparation and even bought tis cure little overall as welcome/happy birthday present…today she woke up and the first thing she told me was that…”mummy how many more days i have to wait”..hahaha! well thats bug alrite…

everyday i sit down and we study together…i would do my japanese and she her workbooks…sometimes i cant help but take her peak at her work…and when tat happens she tells me,” mummy, u do ur work and i do mine”. tis holiday u are very free because u are not working and no housework….”…hahaha how true…

“V” sign baby at 37 wks

V sign

this is the 2nd time during the ultra-scan, where little “peabean” showed the V sign. First time was when i was around 20-ish week in Jpn and latest at week 37/36.  Hopefully, it will be truly be a “Victory” child…kekeke if managed to surpass everything that has happened so far and come into tis world in great shape….! another prayers waiting to be answered….SHML!!

Bugs First Email and Skype

Yesterday bug asked me to teach her how to use email….so i set the keyboard in hiragana and taught her how to press a few words and taught her how to use mail…and click the send button after she is done. So now she knows how to press “backspace” to delete, shift when she wants to use the ten-ten etc for  hiragana…and she wrote and sent her first email to H yesterday…trying teaching her how to use the chat fteature in skype but speed is a real issue since H has not much time to spend on chattingg. The whole idea of e-learning…crossed my mind coz i was thinking if i was admitted in hospital, at least she could call her dad and update my progress…although its really for a day or two….so i taught her how to use skype…she liked and enjoyed it very much and now she is able to switch on the PC and call hideki from skype….i have so many names in my skype list so she asked me to write down his skype name on her note book cover…and so now she keeps the note book just beside her to check if the name is green (online) or marked “X” (offline)…..

as for her other progress, phonics is alittle slow mainly coz i m a bad teacher…but she has finished her basic maths and now into telling time. I even threw in some science workbook so even tat she has completed the whole sseries….After just 4 classes of piano…she is able to play quite a number of tunes without even looking at her notes…something the teacher told me tat would be onli possible if i enrolled her at Yamaha Music School and not the private classes like now….When i asked bug, she told me that she listens to the tune when she is playing it and so she is able to do it wout looking at the notes after a few times…perhaps, playing classical music to her when she was still in the womb is paying off now??? coz i surely dont have the music talent or neither do H for the matter….jsut have to wait and see….she is onli 5 now…along way more to go…

Diwali

Last weekend was the festival of lights for all Hindu friends….which in Malaysia, it translates to open house. Bug woke up early morning and told me she wanted to go for diwali…its been ages since i went to  any open houses…where am i gonna take her. Luckily my mom and everyone at home was planning to go to a very close friend’s house for lunch…so i was alittle glad…coz i didnt have to dissapoint her…My SIL found a indian dress which was just about bug’s size…so i got her dressed up in that with some indi bean bangles…and she was all in diwali mood…She truly enjoyed the open houses for both days…on Sunday my best fren came to fetch up for lunch and again for dinner we went over to my neighbhour’s house….so it was 2 days of full diwali festives and goodies. Although she cant really take most indian food served at the open houses coz its either too sweet or spicy or too strong of indian taste/spice…she normally eats the rice with some vege and enjoys the muruku.

The thing about bug is that she is really into the malaysian “adventure”..the moment she realizes she cant get or experience it in Japan, the more she wants to get into the mood….now she even sings malay songs…and is picking up tamil … !!